Burnt Up.

Finally it's sem break. I've been imagining this for the last two months and the wait is finally over. I passed my last academic requirements this afternoon. And I'll be free from all the school stress for the next 3 weeks or so. Most, if not all, of my block mates are already in party mode. As expected, we're all rejoicing at the thought of surviving our most challenging professors yet. The past few weeks have just been pure torture because of all the requirements we had to make. Not to mention the mountain of readings we had to digest. But none of that matters now. We're free to enjoy and relax.

Paoie had her impromptu birthday party at Coastnet. Most of the block was able to come. Drinks all around! But of course I didn't touch a single beer bottle. Though I know that my blockmates have been craving for a good drinking session. Well, they definitely got what they wanted. Even Claire took in some alcohol. Initially, I was surprised. But then I remembered that she's 18 already. Although, it was a bit uncomfortable seeing my friends drinking. I guess I'm just not used to it. I've never seen any of my friends from Bicol doing stuff like that. But I guess this only proves that we're growing already. We're getting to do things that adults do. I had to leave early so I didn't catch all the action. Besides, I didn't get the chance to ask permission from my parents since Paoie only informed me on that day itself. And it was a bit awkward being the only not drinking. They were about to start playing a drinking game when I left. So I would've have been very out of place. But I hope they had fun. And not too much alcohol.

Next year, I'll be old enough to join them in their "games". But I don't think I would. For one, I easily get drunk. (Yeah, my parents let me drink once. Maybe to see how much I can hold my alcohol) And my ears immediately grow hot. Ugh, I don't like that feeling. Thank heavens my blockmates don't pressure me to drink. Just one of the reasons why I have an awesome block.

After I left, I went back to the dorm then borrowed some movies after. woohoo! Movie marathon! I'm only beginning to feel the break from all the stress. I guess I've been so used to feeling the pressure of meeting deadlines. I can feel myself growing restless now that I practically have nothing to do. And I'm so used to staying up so late at night. It's past 2:00AM and I'm still awake. I think I just need time to adjust to my loose schedule. I'll be going to Bicol soon and I hope I'll feel the full force of sem break by then.

My spirits are a bit down. Maybe because I've been under a lot of pressure and I've been keeping a lot of negative feelings inside. For the past two months, I can't even remember how many times I wanted to just break down and cry. I even did, once or twice. But most of time, I'd just keep it in coz I know it wouldn't help me at all. So now, I'm slowing releasing the negative vibes. And the library problem isn't helping. I hope I'll be able to settle it sooner than later. For now, I need a good night sleep.